so im quitting?
i know you guys must think im doing this for drama, and im really not...im serious
so I'm a practicing Christian. im sure most of you know that....lately my Faith, relationship with God and my ability to worship have all been declining.
i had no idea what to do really, when i was a very small girl..before i was 8 or so. i had a very strong relationship with God. but with my grandparents arguing with me about judism(?) and watching a play called "heaven's gates and hell's Flames" it just got worse and worse. When i was a kid, i was very happy and i had no fear of God. he was God yes, but he was someone who created me, saved me and loved me. now i feel like everything i do he's watching me, waiting for me to slip up. angry with everything i enjoy....
it distresses me very much. God is not that kind of person. so its my own imagination as well as the devil(sounds crazy i knooooow) thats giving me this image. im tired of it. i want things to be the way they had been. i was always very happy to pray and go to church. now i feel alienated. i dont enjoy it.
time and time again i have done new things to remedy this. but none have worked. im a happy person. but this is always in the back of my mind. God loves me i know this... but humans are forgetful and i have forgotten the feelings i had before....
ON TO THE TITLE
as we all know homosexuality is sin in christianity(as well as islam and judism). i dont hate gay people, i do not like the sins that they commit(but we all sin, they arent different from me or my other straight friends). hate the sin not the sinner. God loves veryone. people that hate gays are not acting like true christians, hate is a sin
for those of you homosexuals and yaoi fans out there. try to understand. ITS JUST SOMETHING WE ARE NOT PERMITTED TO DO. i cant stop you from it of course, its your free will. but i will not have it myself.
Hetalia unfortunetly is one of those things. at first i denied the totally-canon-yaoi. but now i realize its just a lie so i can watch it. I want to have the things i so long for in my relationship with God...and i cant just ask for faith and then watch things that God may not appreciatte. so i decided to stop watching/reading/listening to hetalia.
THIS COULD BE permanent or not....i could be wrong about it and there fore i can watch again

i hope i read/heard God wrong and that i can still watch it...but if not then i wont participate in it... Its my duty as a christian to follow Gods word and his will. i wont let my own likes get in the way of that. i still have sevral unfinished projects that i will complete put then its noooo more. i will comment on good art...but i will not buy any more merchandise nor draw it myself.
WITH THAT SAID, ARE THERE ANY CHRISTIANS OUT THERE THAT KNOW OF SOME GOOD ANIME THAT WONT BE A BAD THING FOR ME TO WATCH? thankyou
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